Au Pair in America, are you sure?

"Yeah! I have submitted my application to Aceglobal today." I was telling my friend one day in the early of June 2005. I remember how your feedback showing on your face and doubted about this program. It's unbelievable?

Oh I am here in America now... The program is genuine ...

It took me a long time to decide to participate in this program. The moment I submit my profile, I am so sure and know how much I would want to go America!
Why? Nothing else, just to see the world!
The dull and boring daily routine life needs some excitment!
So I sat for a CPI test in Aceglobal, interviewed by the agent in Singapore via web cam, accepted by AuPair in America UK office,..everything was so smooth!

I get my first call in July 4, 2005 from a family in Michigan the second day after I have been accepted by this program. It was so surprise as I didn't expected to answer a call so soon. I was trying to delay the date of departure to spring 2006...so that I can depart almost the same time with Michelle.

I didn't match with Lisa's family in Michigan, due to my uncertainty to arrive America in September. So I said :"I believe in God's arrangement."

A second after I click my mouse on the "send" button, my hand phone rang.
An enthusiastic and happy women voice on the line. She introduced herself and her family...... and ask me if I am happy to be the guest in their family. The first impression is good!
She was considerate about me, bear in mind about things that I mentioned in my profile, and shows that they really like me. She also tolerant about my departure date due to my own reason.... and after a long chat, we matched!

The next step, is to wait for the confirmation and acceptance package from UK office. And it didn't let me wait for too long. So I have an interview appointment with US Embassy on August 3, 2005. So excited!

"I failed the interview... they declined my visa..." and I was crying in the car. It's a big shock for everyone. No one predict that would happen! A big wave just brushed away all the beautiful dreams ...

August 2005, an extremely busy month in my life.
I busy at work, busy in collecting all neccessary supporting documents, busy in practicing my oral for second visa interview,... busy for some other personal matters.... My house became so messy as I have totally run out of time. So sorry to my housemate. Please forgive me for the mess!

This time, nobody thought I could get my visa, I could feel that strongly!
I prayed, I talked to "My Gods" I talked to Buddha, I talked to my parents...asked them if they think I am suppose to go America, please help me. If I am suppose to stay in Malaysia, there must be a reason behind... I tried my best, nut leave the answer to my God...

Oh! if I could record the process of my interview, I would definately show it to you. It was so tense and took me nearly an hour to convince the consular to issue me a visa. A big accomplishment in life! I no longer afraid of being doubted why I have been refused for visa to enter USA in the future... I still want to travel, definately!

huh! Happy? Yeah, for some reasons...But I was too busy to think about the excitement! I had no time to sit down quietly to be sad for leaving my family and friends; I was too busy and no time to jump around to announce I am going to America. What I ought to do is still working and packing my luggage. I am so sad that I even lack of time to farewell with most of my friends......

.....and the departure date is coming soon!

Oh friend, a new 'you'

Sze chyng,

I get to know about this au apair in america program since you sent me your first email from America 2 years ago. I was so surprise about your changes in life.

In my impression, you are introvert...not really had good times in your life, rare to smile, not interested in exploring life at all.... Oh! I might be wrong.

You took a first step to change,...expecting a new life in America...and it all begins in September 2003 when I am reading your email in learning center in SHU, UK. We once were good friend in our first year of secondary school, and we become strangers to each other...do u remember?

Follow by your first email from America, our new friendship began again.. :)
There's up and down in your life, full of excitement, happiness, sadness, confusing, ... but you are fine now. Aren't you? I am glad to see your changes after you came back from America... you are now a cheerful person!!

And I am begin my life in America now... searching for the answer .. of life........

God arrangement

Life gives answers in three ways:

It says YES and gives you whatever you want,
It says NO and gives you something better,
It says WAIT and gives you the best!

No matter what is the answer, there is a reason...

I ever frown; I ever disappointed..
but dont ever give up and you will know the reason...

p/s: I am a free thinker, but I believe that there is a 'God' in all arrangements!

Life .... ?

What is life? what is life?

Life is what we think of it.
When our mind is bright, everything in life is bright.
The sky is high and blue, the grass is green, the wind is fresh, the sun is warm, and even the rain is lovely!
When our mind is bright, the most disgusting people become lovely, the most nasty people become friendly, the most difficult task become a simple duty!

But life, it isn't always stay bright....

So what is life means to you?