Spring 花开的季节

春天花会开，鸟儿自由自在...

春风轻轻揉揉得抚摸着湖水，好让它也一快儿来迎接花开的季节。

你看蔚蓝的天空和清澈的湖水把花儿衬托得更为动人。

一场春雨，为大地万物带来生机。青青草地上，鲜艳夺目的小花儿不经让我停下脚步，享受漫漫旅途中意外的惊喜。

童年

是否还记得，小时候我们喜欢玩什么？ 这个吗？
这个吗？
还是这个？

长大以后，天真烂漫的岁月渐渐远去。

你是否还记得，童年时简单的快乐？

do do do... hair do!

我变，我变，我变变变 。。。

This fellow wanted to chat with my Brazilian friend, that's why he spent a long time to do our hair. Though he is only a salesperson for the hair straighthener but he did like hairstylish.

See my new hair style!

The Straighthener is like a magic stick, it can straighthen ur hair and make nice curls as well! Very tempting, but cost $200 for one, too expensive! Anyhow, these big curls do not suite me... I'm more comfortable with my straight hair.

Doggies

Who is this? Fierce huuh?

He is Sammy! They said he has Yellow and Blue eyes, but I think it's White!

This siberian Husky doesn't look friendly but he like people to pat him. Anyway, he never bite me :)

See, both fighthing for a ball because they both want attention! The black one is Trooper, we used to call him Troopy. He loves people to pat him...but when Sammy saw it, he would get jealous. His jealousy is bit scary, most of the times he would bark when he wants us to pat him insteed of Troopy.

Oh ya, something that two thumbs up is Troopy know how to open the door though it's close oh!

Life is vulnerable

I was so shock to know about your dad has passed away last two week. It's unbelievable!

In my memories, he is still strong and healthy. When is the last time I see him? It could be at least 3 or 4 years ago. I remember he bought me tans of durians when I visited him. After that, I don't have chance to visit him... never, anymore...

Life is so short and vulnerable... If you want to do something, do it without delay; if you care about someone, let him/her know immediately; if you think you could wait for the chances, you better aware that 'you need to swim out for the ship'...

To all my friends: I love you... always take care!!

Options 1, 2, 3

I started this blog probably one or two month before my departure to US. What was the reason I created this blog? I can't really remember. Dai lou is the one who recommended me to this blog. Did I told you why do I want my own blog?

I think I tried to record every single moment that happened to me here: My feelings, up and down, my challenges, my new friends,...

But I didn't really do it regularly. It makes me a little hard to trace back what happened within these few months in US.

And now, it's close to the time for me to make decision for the coming directions. Should I extend my program? Should I go back to Malaysia to start again my career? Or should I become holiday maker in UK for another two years?

I'm always thinking, why this and not that and why that and not this? If I already make you confuse at this point, I think you can turn off this screen and proceed to something more rigid. Because I also confuse when I'm writting...

Well, there are always some reasons, of course, that drives me here, and next directions... maybe you can give me some comments.

Below are a few options :

1) Extend another 6, 9, or 12 months as an au pair in US

*Since the begining of my program, I heard about thousand of cases and failure examples of this so called 'cultural exchange'. I feel sorry for some of the girls who have been treated as 'Indon maid' in Malaysia. I was also once felt bad about the unfortunate that happenned to my friends, those I know and I care. Though I'm much fortunate to be with my host family, I'm little afraid about the reality - nothing is eternal!

Therefore, I am reluctant to go to a new family which is full of unexpectation.

2) Apply Holiday makers visa (2 years) work and travel in UK

* The reasons is there's an age limit. One must be below 31 to be eligibled for this visa. I hope to travel to Europes again. I still have not realize my 'Tulip field dream'. The more I see, the more i want to see. But too bad, money not enough! Earning pounds are reasonably easier for me to realize my dreams than earning Ringgit Malaysia. Agree?

3) Go back to Malaysia

*Oh my! My country! Chinese proverb said "又爱又恨 " . I miss the people that I cares over there, I miss my little nephews and nieces (though they are no longer 'little'), I miss the days out looking for delicious foods, pasar malam,... But I knew a reality: Everone has his/ her own life going on, me too, should carry on my own life.

So what about career? uhhh, my career path are almost bending here and there like a snake curling on the tree, look calm but swinging on the air. em..some who denied my decision to come US at that moment might say: "see, told you don't go and u was so stubborn." ;P

This time, when I go back, I'm no longer 25, no longer in the good market value age...damn shit lor! So, start a child care business as discussed with sister before I came? Wao!! look like lots of commitment. Am I ready for that? I have to sacrify most of my times (weekends or even holidays) to fight with the risks!

Or should I go for my interest? I should probably call Ah Sai to find out if press mind to hire a fresh entry of age 27...

Goodbye Winter!!

The weather was so good on April 1. We couldn't wait to take out the coat and headed to the beach!

We are here, Hampton beach!

Doggies also like to walk on the beach!

Today's feeling

I'm listening to 988 online, love the songs broadcast at night (oh, night time in M'sia). Chinese songs always make me 'feel' and wanted to write something.

But so shame to say that my English is still 'tak boleh' after half an a year in US. It doesn't improve much, only learnt some American's terminologies... for example, instead of saying handsome, they would say cute, hot, sweet,... em, what else? uh, some bad words!! hahaa....

I always learn some bad words from my 'international friends'.. bad words seems like easier to memorise than good words... hahahaa...

Wanna learn some from me? I'll teach you later, privately!

Oh yeah, i tried to access light and easy fm/lightradio but unsuccessful. I miss the odies in light n easy...

Rainy day

Today is rainy day, I suppose it will continue shower throughtout the day. As usual, I woke up at 5:30 in the morning, sent the kids to school and came home at 8:30. Before I went to the turoring in Haverhill, I have about 30 minutes to get ready.

Thus, I played the Mp3 of Faye Wong while I'm preparing my breakfast. Again, I 'm struggling whether go or not go to the tutoring. It's so comfortable to just stay at home, listening to music and walking around the room without doing anything. I could read some books, I could write something, I could play with Ozzy,... Isn't it good?

Now, I fully understand why someone had ever told me when she has to leave here and go home, she will miss the comfortable life here... Compare with the working environment back in my country, this program more like a half vacation for me. It is about 85% stress free, might be. See, how comfortable it is curling on the couch in this rainy day.

Anyhow, I need to go to tutoring. Should be a responsible person (though I skip it once in a while).

miss home

Out of a sudden, I miss home so so much!

I miss the Wan tan mee, soup noodle, curry chu ciong fan, buffet steamboat, ..., miss going to Pasar Malam in Mont' Kiara, yam cha in those fancy restaurant, going to Malacca or Penang just to eat,...., and of course miss the people there the most! Sometimes I do think to get a ticket and fly home surprisingly! Yeah!! sounds good huuh?

Well, but I'm sure after a while I arrive at home, I will want to getaway again. That's happen most of the time when i stuck in the shitty works in job.

It has been more than a half year i live in America. It's not long, time really flies through very fast. It's time for me to think about the new direction for a few months later. Options are always there, but it's hard to make sure which I am suppose to go for. Sometimes, I think that i should travel whenever I still have the chances; but how long can I travel and when and where is the end? So confusing...

Instead of saying the times I travel out of country are the breaks for me, I feel more like the other way round. I might be a break for me when I'm home, and after recharge from the break, I started my journey that full of challenges again... a journey that was totally new and full of unexpectations!

But when I'm tired, I will miss home...